BANana's
Monday, April 21, 2003:
So i attempt again. I've been playign this game for our floor called gotcha. It's been pretty fun, its basicly tag, but u have one target only. One safety is posted everyday, and todays was to wear a dunce cap, ( a hat 1 ft tall that says "dunce" on it) and as long as u'r wearin the safety u can't be tagged. SO ... yesterday the person i had , had their door locked, so i jumped through the window and tagged them.. hahahah.
Allenini // 3:32 PM
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hm... its like a cycle i can't break.
Allenini // 12:01 AM
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Sunday, April 20, 2003:
Today i took communion for the first time without a guilty conciounsee, maybbe its that everyone was handed a it... maybe i'm maturing, maybe i stopped caring, i dont' really know, but ... i know someone out there is taking care of me.
Allenini // 10:35 PM
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My other #1 lesson. Live your life free of regrets... when your time comes to go, leave without regretting the way you treated your friends, your parents, your brothers and sisters and all the people around you. Leave life without regreting the way you lived. And if you do end up doing something you regret later on in life... remember how to forgive yourself and be free again.
Allenini // 4:34 AM
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Saturday, April 19, 2003:
Hm.... i'm up! i forget what i was going to post...... hmmmmmmmmmm lemi think.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................nope ......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................still nothing. dangiet, i'll let that one slide. i saw better luck tomorrow... it was pretty funny. The main character girl made a guest apperance at the theatre we were in . um.......... hm........ yeah ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................Bye
Allenini // 11:49 AM
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Anita's quote, " You guys., this is so laming!"
Niko's quote" I'm all half white and stuff what the hell is with that? If drunk and sober got in a fight after school, drunk would totally kick sober's ass"
yo yo yo this is jason
all i know is I'm allen's bro
and he always has many hos
he wakes up to a cup of jo
and he wonders where he gets the dough"
OK jason just fell over the couch.
My final quote of the night. " All your base are belong to me."
Allenini // 4:51 AM
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Friday, April 18, 2003:
GOODnight everyone!
Allenini // 3:24 AM
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ok... still up, thinking about my dad. it scares me to imagine what his last hours were like... he worked so hard, up until the very end... his whole life i rarely saw him rest. When he'd see me being lazy.. his advice / words would be.. "Don't you feel guilty when you haven't done any work..." of course i heeded them then, but now they burn in my head with guilt. Sheesh sleep time, i've missed class A LOT already this quarter. I have too much compassion for others, should i be more self centered? i think its time to stop caring on the outside.
Allenini // 3:24 AM
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I dunno if anyone even reads this anymore but.... next year i'm getting a ocean view at SD, we picked housing today, and i got a good room. Thank you God. what else.... God has been good to me recently.. i feel blessed. It's like i'm trimming the fat in my life, and starting to focus it, i still need to trim that gaming fat though. grrrr hahah, ooh yeah pictures.
The UCSD Crewthat sward neil is holding is made out of solid united states postal service postal tape
I have many holes in my shirt, but it doesn't matter because its comfertable
Roaaarr
Like my tongue ring?
What'r u lookin at??
EEuuhh.....
me cutting ryans dreds
Allenini // 2:56 AM
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Scrabbled it up, i won, but don't feel very good though.. i hate competition, 6, its good in some ways but it also brings out the worst in people.
Allenini // 2:48 AM
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Thursday, April 17, 2003:
boogerouse. give it a 7
Allenini // 2:07 PM
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Wednesday, April 16, 2003:
wait... that should be 2/3rds genious.. Just for that, from now on i should just be concidered stupid.
Allenini // 4:45 PM
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susurrus \su-SUHR-uhs\, noun:
A whispering or rustling sound; a murmur.
Still, the breeze is soothing, as is the susurrus of the branches.
in a picture.. how can you tell the difference between a sun set and a rising sun?
Allenini // 3:48 PM
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I'm happy i'm feeling glad i got sunshine in a bag i'm useless but not for long the future is coming on is comin on is comin on! I'll give today a 9.5 :-) Love ya merlin! Hope your doing good, i haven't heard from you in a while.
Allenini // 1:05 PM
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ok so i finished it after i went to the bathroom and got a 22, not bad, i guess i'm only 1/3 genious due to my ADD.
Allenini // 12:55 PM
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Are you a genious? The only reason i'm not a genious is cuz the test took too long and my ADD started setting in.
Allenini // 12:35 PM
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Tuesday, April 15, 2003:
we celebrated me and nikos birthday on sunday, it was great. a group of our friends went to eat at red robins for my first time. then we went to the mall, it has a ice skating rink in it so we watched some teams play hockey. yup. ! 7
Allenini // 1:49 AM
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Monday, April 14, 2003:
http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P4434657&BN=999&PN=1
Allenini // 5:42 PM
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I had another dream today and began to cry in my sleep.. so whats new?
Allenini // 2:52 PM
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i tried my best at this game called love.
Allenini // 1:53 PM
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2 leaning towards a 3, but just can't seem to get there...
Allenini // 12:21 AM
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Sunday, April 13, 2003:
life is like skating... sometimes your skates bring you somewhere you don't want to be, you can never just stop.. all you can do is addapt to the situation, the more you skate the better you get at improvising and addapting to sticky situations..... i suck at skating.
Allenini // 10:37 PM
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I don't know how i'm feeling... i'm hurt... but i feel good..? 7
Allenini // 1:02 PM
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Friday, April 11, 2003:
Swimming is the best sport ever... cuz u don't have to use deodorant.
Allenini // 1:33 PM
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Thursday, April 10, 2003:
To me music is stronger than words..
Allenini // 12:47 AM
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Wednesday, April 09, 2003:
I hate seeing you act like something your not.
Allenini // 9:47 PM
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I miss the violin so much.
Allenini // 1:03 PM
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"When u'r alone there's no one there to let u down" better luck tomorrow
Allenini // 2:28 AM
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Marilyn go watch "Adaptation."
Allenini // 12:55 AM
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I watched "adaptation" today. pretty good movie. very.. compelling at times. I wanna see "better luck tomorrow" one of my friends was talking about it earlier this year when they went to a film festivel.
Allenini // 12:54 AM
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Sunday, April 06, 2003:
Hedgehog Dilemma: the closer people get, the more they hurt each other
Allenini // 1:55 PM
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i just regulated in tetrinet... i'll give that a 8 but its quickly... dropping. Dunno whats on my mind, i think for once in my life i'm experiencing mood swings... i better keep those in check. It sucks... cuz u'll be happy one moment, and the next second u'll feel like everything in life is so pointless... Its really hard for me to study now too i don't think i'll ever be as successful as i want to be. But thats still yet to be determined. But in my mind the future has already been fortold.
Wow no doubt has a new music vid. "running." "i'm the one you chose out of all the people, you wanted me the most. I'm sorry i've fallen, help me up and we'll keep runing.... we're running as fast as we can. do you think we'll make it?" wow this is a really "cute" music video. It's similar to Eminems music video, where... they do like this looking back at their accomplishments type video. Gwens so cute.. she can steal my heart anyday. LoL DAaarrrrR. HEhehe YEAAAh this songs deffinitely good, its even got the old school Nintendo video game music in the background. HAHAHa
Anyways, back to the feelings inside... um... i forget. LoL "Malibu's most wanted" looks like a funny movie... but cheezy, so... probably not a good movie overall. and i'm gonna try and see "Better Luck tomorrow" The commercials on MTV look intreeging. Man.. hearing all this stuff about JP is really depressing, but i wont talk about that. I just wanted to go to a dance to let loose, but i think the time is over already. i'm not in the mood anymore.. "aww made ja look. Add another slave to my rhyme book." it woulda been so perfect, cuz i finished winter quarter off on a good note, then i coulda had fun/groove, and then get back into things. But now instead... it just feels all so pointless.
So today was Chingming Jie.... i think i'm gonna take some time out for him... goodthing my roomates a sleep now...."Dad.... i miss you so much...i never thought that you'd ever be gone. I never realized that it would be so soon. I"m sorry..... so sorry....if i had known... i would have acted different. Now i know not to treat life with such carelessness... not to...bicker over petty things. I'm still working though... its still hard for me to motivate myself to be a good person like you were, to follow in your footsteps, to help others and to continually learn about the world. Now it's like you're only a shaddow in my memory... i'm sorry .... i didn't mean to... i should have tried harder to understand you before i judged you... why did i always judge you so harshly? Why was it so hard for me to sympasize with you... to listen to your words and accept them. DAMN I SCrewed up... so bad....i'm ssooo sorry.... i'll always hold myself responsible... it was my fault i was a bad son..... it was my fault things ended the way they did....i'm so sorry.. i was so stuipd..." God ... please help me, i know i don't always give you the attention that you deserve, but i know that i need your help now... i need your help to get through this life ... " God sent me an angel from the heavens above...."
Whatevers... i'm out, sleep time. Peace...
Allenini // 4:25 AM
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Saturday, April 05, 2003:
i'm feeling good today ... 7
Allenini // 12:23 PM
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Friday, April 04, 2003:
MatzeCC126 (1:36:05 PM): say some nice greetings to your mum and uncle sian, you have a really good family
5
Allenini // 1:39 PM
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Thursday, April 03, 2003:
.. The fog creeps in during the day now too...3
Allenini // 3:21 PM
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My lump hurts... 6
Allenini // 2:16 AM
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Wednesday, April 02, 2003:
It scares me ... not knowing weather what i feel is the trueth or a lie i wish to believe. 1
Allenini // 6:28 PM
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Splendor
I Think God Can Explain
There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes
It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get caried away
It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet
The sent of vasoline
in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when I begin to cry
It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet.
I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed
I'ts alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get off of your back
I think God can explain
I think God can explain
I think God can explain
Allenini // 4:43 PM
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Song of the moment; take u'r time to read the lyrics.. they're cute 8^D:
Justin Timberlake - Take It From Here
Sometimes, sometimes the world gets hard
Oh na na na
I'm gonna take it from here girl
Don't you worry
I wanna be your lake, or your bay
And any problems that you have
I wanna wash 'em away
I wanna be your sky
So blue and high
And everytime you think of me
I wanna blow your mind
I wanna be your air
So sweet and fair
So when you feel that you can't breathe
Ma, I'll be there
I wanna be your answer, all the time
When you see how I put your life before mine
With no question
When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'ma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl
I'ma take it from here
I wanna hold your hands
Review all your plans
I wanna make sure everyone of your dreams is there
I would be your broadway show on review
So I can act out how God was when he made you
I wanna be your lighthouse when you get lost
I'll light a bright and shiny path to help you across
I wanna be your mother, wait
See what I see
And when you see that can't nobody hold you like me
Cause I love you
When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'ma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl (no no)
I'ma take it from here
And when there's no one there to hold
And you realize the world is cold
Don't worry, girl
I'ma take it from here
That's what I'm gonna do
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
(Don't you worry, baby)
Don't worry, girl
I'ma take it from here
Give me one reason why we should not be leaving
This world is so deceiving, the time is now
Let's fly away speeding
Through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet breathing of love surrounds
When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'ma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl (no no)
I'ma take it from here
Give me one reason
Why we should not be leaving
This world is so deceiving
The time is now
Lets fly away speeding
(We'll fly away)
Through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet and breathing
Of love surrounds
When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, girl
I'm-a take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, girl
I'm-a take it from here
Love ain't always the way they write in books
(No, no)
See there's the good guys
And also heartbreak crooks
Your hearts the real one
Just take a look inside
'Cause it's a colorful illustrated guide
So there you go
Don't worry
To help you weather the storm
I'll be there mami
No matter what time
No matter what place
You can always count on me
I'll take it from here
Allenini // 12:56 AM
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Tuesday, April 01, 2003:
"success is my only option.. failure is not."
Allenini // 10:07 PM
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